TIFU by obliviously rejecting a blowjob from a girl I liked.

Okay, this actually happened 2 years ago, when I started working at the job I currently have. I was gonna be shown the ropes by a pretty attractive girl, and we hit it off from the very start, we had lots in common, our conversations were never boring or repetitive.

This went on for a about a month. There was good chemistry between us, we started to go to places, get ice cream, talk about anime/movies, and play videogames together. At this point our conversations started to get ever so spicy. She's bi, so we'd talk about the different kinds of coochies we liked, kinds of boobies we preferred, one day she pressed her small hand to mine, and asked if her hands were big enough to wrap the shaft of my penis with only one, to which I only answered a vague "Probably" with no follow-ups.

Needless to say, I was quite attracted to her at this point. In hindsight, I, being a self-confidence lacking virgin at the time (still am), somehow shot down all her advances.

Now, to the point in question. We were sitting together in the lunch room after work, and somehow we ended up talking about fellatio and cunnilingus. She then placed her right hand on my crotch and asked me if I thought a blowjob from her would feel good, after hearing that, I thought she was Canadian and was just being polite, so I kept my wits about me and rejected her... Well, no, that's not what actually happened lol. I utterly flustered, literally just laughed it off and said "Haha, yeah, probably". I wanna punch the me from that moment in the face so badly.

We slowly grew apart after that (justifiably so), she likely thought she was just wasting her time with me (and yes, she probably was). It's been two years, we still talk every now and then, hug each other, etc. But the spicy conversation and hanging out are no more. She's the kindest person I've ever met, and I truly respect her for that. I inwardly apologize to her every time I see her.

TL;DR I hit it off with a girl I met at my new job. We grew confident in each other, to the point where she offered to give me a blowjob, but I though she was Canadian and was just being polite, so I kept my wits about me and rejected her.

Edit 1: I hope the people from Canada did not get offended by my self loathing joke. It's a reference to this series of videos. I'd like to recommend it to anyone who didn't understand the reference, they're a thing of beauty.

Edit 2: To the ones saying she's a terrible person for drifting apart from me after the fellatio incident, two things: 1st, it wasn't just that one time that I was oblivious to her advances on me, it happened many times that I now regret not having acted upon. 2nd, I'm definitely the one at fault here. She was into me (most likely) and I ignored her every try to step thing up (albeit obliviously). She definitely felt like I wasn't into her, and the fact that I might have hurt her makes me feel like a scumbag.