greenmangostudio

Edit: I will try and answer any questions there is to add better clarification if needed Like the tilted says. I've been off work for a while due to some metal heath reasons. My coverage ended March 26th and for some dumb reason, I've been avoiding the phone calls from the benefits company and my doctor and my therapist. My fiancé has been covering the bills. I don't know why I didn't just pick up the phone or email back, but I didn't. I deleted the phone calls and the emails. Part of me hoped that if I ignored it, it would all go away. I really don't know why I didn't it. This morning my fiancé snapped and wanted to look through my phone and I just lied and lied and lied. He asked me multiple times if I deleted anything and I told him I never did. I feel fucking terrible about what I've done because I know this fucks us financially. I am going to tell him when he wakes up and I honestly won't be surprised if he wants to end our relationship. I tru...

This happened today and I am still cringing so hard I could power a small city. I work remotely and have been trying to rebuild a social life, which basically means I grab onto any friendly chat like a golden retriever. A coworker messaged me on Teams asking about weekend plans. The normal answer would have been "Not much, you?" Instead I tried to be charming. I said I would probably do a jigsaw puzzle. She replied, "Aw, cute. What kind?" and I immediately went full-on hobby nerd. I started describing my current puzzle like it was an investigation: I sort pieces by color and edge, I keep the so-called "suspects" in little trays, and I even keep a notebook where I mark which sections are "high probability" based on texture and print pattern. Yes, I said texture. Yes, I heard myself. Then it got worse. I had sent like six messages in a row and tried to make a joke: "If I ever go missing, tell the police to check my puzzle board. It has all...

Obligatory "this wasn't today". Since my teens I have had trouble going to the toilet to the point where I would bleed and be in pain almost every single time. I hated it, I would always anticipate pain and try to prolong the inevitable... but, as we all know: it don't take "no" for an answer! Things having been popping out that are not meant to make an appearance down there. I have resorted to haphazardly popping then right back in when in I'm the shower. During a movement I would be straining to the point I would resemble Hellboy! Every. Single. Time! I tried many things to combat this issue over the years. Changed diet, drinking absurd amounts of water, exercise. For example, I introduced A LOT of fibre in to my diet, but that did nothing permanent. It just sporadically made the "shit bullets" have a lubricated, and yet still painful exit. I would drink so much water that my colleagues thought I had developed prediabetes! I am not an av...

today i fucked up. a girl i used to have feelings for came back into my life after a year and a half. she had a boyfriend, but we reconnected as “just friends” a few weeks go by and we went out to celebrate her getting through a rough chapter in her life   we had drinks, played darts, and ended up back at her place where we had sex. halfway through it, i completely zoned out and couldn’t focus anymore. the guilt hit me all at once because i knew she wasn’t single, and suddenly i realized i didn’t even want to be there in that moment. i told her i was tired, left, and went home feeling empty. i hadn’t enjoyed any of it. all i felt was guilt and disappointment in myself. a week later she texted saying she wanted me in her life, but i couldn’t do it. after what happened, i couldn’t look at her the same, and honestly i couldn’t look at myself the same either. even if part of me once wanted something with her, how could i ever trust someone after we both did that to her now ex? th...

I got a new office chair in April of 2025. Unfortunately the chair was probably about an inch or two too tall for me. It wasn't too much of a problem, I just kind of boosted myself up and plopped into the chair. I will say that I a bit overweight so this may have compounded the issue. But the repeated plopping in the chair appears to have caused stress on my tailbone. 3 months after getting the new chair, my tailbone started hurting, I had no injuries to the area at all. I got a cushion for the chair to help. I didn't attribute the pain to the chair as I had recently lost a large amount of weight and tailbone discomfort can occur when you lose fat in your butt. I continued to use the chair. The cushion did add more height to the chair and I of course still jumped a little to get to the chair. In September 2025 the pain started getting worse, especially when going from sitting to standing. I ended up going to physical therapy for 2 months. They started by focusing on my lower ...

so my supervisor shows up out of nowhere last night and i swear i felt my brain just short out like i dont even remember exactly what i was watching on my phone, some dumb youtube vid about elden ring builds or whatever, but i just shoved it in my pocket and grabbed the nearest clipboard like that was gonna magically turn me into an employee of the month or something, and im walking fast like way too fast through aisles pretending im busy, nodding at boxes like yeah this one is definitely a box good job everyone, and then ofc he notices me because im acting like a lunatic and he comes up and is like what are you working on and instead of saying literally anything normal i go yeah just verifying discrepancies in section c, i dont even know why i said section c we dont even label stuff like that im pretty sure, and he pauses like i just told him the sky is green and goes which discrepancies and i kinda freeze but also not really i just start talking and say the delayed ones?? like that ...