TIFU by agreeing to watch New Years fireworks with my crush.

To clarify before I begin, the only people who knew about my crush on... lets call her Sam, were my best friend and my brother.

I (17F) have had a crush on Sam (18F) for almost a year now. At first I didn't do anything because she had just gotten out of a messy breakup with another girl and didn't want to pressure her into anything. Then I didn't do anything because it turns out she was my best friends crush, so I had to abide by the girl code. About 3 months ago that best friend gave me the all-clear to go ahead, so I began to ask Sam out. It started off as little things, going for milkshakes after school or just walking around the park for a few hours. But slowly we started hanging out with bigger things, getting dinner together, playing arcade games for a whole day, etc. We would hug each other whenever we greeted each other or were about to leave. hell, she even won me a stuffed elephant from a carnival we went to together! Now I'll be clear, I never explicitly asked her out in a romantic way, this was my first time actively pursuing a relationship and my only role model was my brother (who circled around his girlfriend for 3 years until she finally asked him out officially) and my parents (who always seem to argue whenever they're in the same room and only got together because of 9/11) so I didn't really know what I was doing. And looking back I'm still not sure whether she was just stringing me along or if she genuinely didn't realise I was trying to romanticise her.

Regardless, I thought everything was going great and decided to invite her to watch the New Years fireworks with me. Now, I live in Sydney, Australia so they're nothing to scoff at. So when she agreed to go with me I was stoked! We arranged everything like where we would meet up and at what time, and then continued on with our hangout. A few days later she was talking to me about the plan again and I realised she said something odd, I can't remember exactly what. When I asked her to clarify, she told me that she had invited a guy along, lets call him Todd. Now, I know Todd. he's a sweet guy, I sit next to him in class and have been friends with him for 2 years now, and while he's not part of the main friend group he's known Sam since they were young. So while it was surprising she would do it without asking me first, I didn't exactly see anything wrong with it so I let it go. This was my first mistake.

While I was grocery shopping today, I ran into Todd. We got to chatting and the subject of New Years came up since its so close. After a bit of discussion about our families plans and our general excitedness about it, the conversation went something like this:

Todd: "Hey, it wont be awkward will it?"

Me, slightly confused: "Awkward about what?"

Todd: "About me coming to watch the fireworks with you and Sam"

Me: "I don't see why it would be awkward, the more the merrier!"

Todd: "Ah, good. I was worried that Sam being my girlfriend would make you think you were third-wheeling our date or something, ha ha"

What.

At this point I just kind of blink at Todd for a moment before my years of Drama classes kicked in and I laughed along. We continued to shop and just before I could leave and go home to contemplate my life, Todd turns to me.

Todd: "So, just to confirm, you're still coming to the fireworks with me and Sam?"

And y'know what my dumbass said?

Me: "Yep! Looking forward to it!"

So now I've basically agreed to watch my crush go on a date and get a New Years Kiss. all while reeling from the realisation that it turns out she did not want me back, despite us hanging out almost every second day for months. And she has already texted me saying how excited she is to see me on New Years Eve. FML.

TLDR: I am a hot lesbian mess and after constantly hanging out with her, invited my (bisexual) crush out to watch fireworks on New Years. She agreed (yay) but turns out she was inviting someone else along too (not yay). the guy asks if its alright that he was tagging along, and asked if I was sure I was still coming. when I confirmed, he said he was relieved that him dating my crush wouldn't make me feel like I was third-wheeling their date. I was unaware she was even dating him. And now I am going to third-wheel my crush's date because I had already confirmed I was going. Where there will likely be a New Year's kiss. FML.