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I (22F) just finished a group presentation for one of my classes. Holy hell do I feel like the shittiest person on earth.
We rehearsed and practiced it like 50 times and were confident we would do great. I didn't slip up when we practiced and knew exactly what to say and when.
Then it was time for the actual presentation.
I started out fine in the beginning, just a few jitters. Then, in the middle of the presentation, I don't know why, or how, but I just completely lost my train of thought. I completely blanked. And as I saw that slightly confused look on the faces of the entire class and my professor, I froze even more and started panicking inside. But my teammates got a read of what was going on and moved on. Then when the presentation was nearing the end, I somehow got my shit together and finished somewhat strong.
But oh my god oh my god, I feel like a monster. I feel so guilty for messing up like that, especially considering the weeks of effort I put into this. I can't believe I slipped up like that.
After it was over, I apologized to my teammates. They all did so well and I was the only one who fucked up. They reassured me and told me I did great and that we're a team. I'm so so grateful, but in the back of my mind I feel like I lost their trust. Like they will never see me as a reliable teammate.
I have to work with them for the rest of the year. I have to see my professor and classmates for the rest of the year. I feel like deep down my teammates are disappointed with me. I get it, I would be too.
We got an A on the presentation, so I'm relieved my teammates' grades did not tank because of me.
But I definitely let them down.
We have another presentation coming up, so I want to do everything I can to make sure I don't freeze again and redeem myself.
I hate group projects with a passion and I hate working with teams. But trust me when I say that the teammates I have right now are actually the most understanding, caring, responsible, and hardworking team I've ever had the pleasure of working with. I hope I can prove myself to them and regain their trust.
TL;DR: Froze up during a group presentation and now I feel like shit.
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