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TIFU By being a naïve child

Disclaimer: This is my first ever confession of being molested/raped/abused as a child to anyone.

This isn't a throwaway idc

I was about 8yo(M) living in a remote village, was kinda nerdy and didn't have a computer of my of at the time and also not very many toys to play with so I befriended a neighbor which I think was about 14(M) that had a computer and a whole lot of toy soldiers. I often came visiting him to play in his yard with the toy soldiers pretending we'd be at war, all good and amazing, my imagination was going wild. That went on for about a year or so, then we started shifting from playing with toys to playing CS 1.6 on his PC from time to time, no biggie, I liked it as it was more realistic but things got out of hand real fast. One day he showed me some porn and asked me how I felt about it, if I ever felt any desires to do what was on the screen (mind you I was 9 by that time so I had no real Idea of the implications of the actions performed in the videos). I said no, he didn't comment on it, let it slip and I went home. Some days past and he showed up in front of my yard calling me out if I wanna come by his place and hang out. I was like sure. Here's where the shit hits the fan. He brought me to his house saying we'd play the new Duke Nukem which I was very hyped about. Little did I know... He said he wanna play a game, made me lay on the bed face down and pulled my pants off, I was like wtf. He said I was smelling of shit and he wanted to wipe me. Uhhh ok... Then you know where this is going. I didn't know at that time that what he did was fucked up. So i continued to hang with him untill one day he wanted to play another game, showed me how to play with my pp, but most importantly play with his as he said he'd do the same to me. I basically sucked his ding dong at 9yo while he just fiddled his fingers on my crouch. Thats when i started to realize that I was being used, didn't know the gravity of it but I knew that he was lying in a lot of things he made me do with him, even having me F him and finger him... I cut all ties with him, ignoring him and anything related to him. Repressed everything related as I became older and started realizing. Haven't told anyone until now, the internet because fuck all. Just felt like lifting this heavy stone off my heart.

TL:DR Was a really naïve kid and fell into the webs of a predator who abused me for almost 2 years.

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