TIFU By finding out my friend is racist when I wanted to surprise him.

I don't mean haha dark humor racist I mean a racist that tries to mask it as a joke so they can speak freely. I can handle a racist joke if it's actually funny and creative but its rare. And the friend shares the class with me.

Sorry if I'm rambling I'm so upset right now.

17M, I'm a culinary student, my culinary teacher had over 20 baskets of strawberries left over. Going to be honest, I was having a shit week due to the pressure of college and wanted to make at least one persons day better so, I took one basket with the intention of handing them out at lunch to be nice. As I was handing it out at lunch, got the underclassmen to smile, and It cheered me up. I went over to my “friends” table. I hear him m making awful comments as black people and saying slurs, I will not repeat them here. He was so invested he didn't see me walking up to the table to offer the strawberries to the table. I am black, normally his”jokes” are implied or you fill in the blank. I let those slide because I didn't think he could be that awful. Think extremely corny and dry.

He finally saw me and gets nervous as he didnt expect me, but then the bastard doubles down. “it doesn't count since I didn't say it around them!”, "Its not racist to say words if its in private" and another dude I genuinely respected said “oh like er?”. this was unprompted. I would have let it slide if it didn't come out so naturally. I can tell if you say it in private just from how it sounds, if you say it a lot it has a type of “flow” to it. I tried to laugh it off but I just shook my head and walked off. He tried to tell me “cmon OP you know I was joking!”

I handed the last of the remaining strawberries to my economics teacher. The other friend who I lost respect for was very quiet in class. Normally we would chat and he would hype me up on assignments.

The racist friend who was making the jokes had a history of being called creepy but in my attempt to get along with every one of my peers I kept them in mind but still interacted with him. I couldnt fit it all his allegations and things he admitted on one post without lengthening it. i feel like an idiot for feeling bad for him, normally share reels with each other and when he was going through a break up I went out of my way to make sure there wasn't a couple in it. I never dated before so I thought it was an appropriate action.

Just to find out from a mutual that his version of the breakup wasn't true, my "friend" ranted to the mutual about relationship issues and when the girl found out she broke up with him, the mutual told me that he called her out of her name multiple times and thought she was cheating with her lesbian friend, he was being insecure, that's why. Now I'm ghosting him on Instagram and am short with him in class but he hasn't noticed. The mutual is cutting contact and so will I.

I swear Virginia has been the most racist place I ever lived, you think you know a guy. TLDR was handing out strawberries at lunch and caught my friend being racist.