TIFU: Said something hateful to my husband

Basically, my husband was saying something about how he always provides our child with the best things and what not. For some reason, I blurted out and said, “you were basically nonexistent for the first three years of his life.” I didn’t mean it. I’m not sure why I said it. It isn’t true either so maybe I just said it out of resentment for the day. He slept until 330pm and I was up since 730am with our rambunctious child trying to maintain the house while feeling sick and depressed.

I apologized. Of course he’s pissed. Beyond pissed. How could he not be. He was present for our child and still is very much a great father, even more so as our kid gets older.

When our kid was a newborn it was all me though. It was me changing the diapers and me feeding throughout the night and me trying to keep up on everything with the kid and everything else. I very clearly remember that but it’s been 7 years almost and it doesn’t matter now.

I’m not sure what to do to patch that up. Definite fuck up on my behalf.

Tldr: told my child’s father they weren’t existent for the first three years of our kids life out of anger and didn’t mean it (nor is it true)