TIFU. I ruined my dick.

I’m stupid (21m), from the birth I have defective penis, it was not so bad, just short frenulum, Peyrone disease, fordice spots with hairs growing from my trunk and some scar tissue on foreskin. But I realise that recently when too late. I even didn’t try meet the girl cause I feel my self defective, instead of that I fall in porn addiction and edging too much ( 45min average for session ) With years my frenulum is covered with tears.

And recently I’ve got varicose on dick. I gave it 1 day break and idk what came over me, but after I fap 4 times almost in a row. How could I do something so stupid.

After that I felt something under my groin, like the underskin vein was damaged ( felt like bruise ), The swollen vein on the trunk become even larger and today if I strain it becomes pale / drained of blood. Also my trunk got covered with little and thin new varicose veins.

TL;DR : I have defective dick from the birth but actually it was not so bad and now I regret that I did not appreciate it and didn’t save it in healthy condition. Now I wish to have initial condition that I thought was incredibly terrible.